I haven’t posted in a LONG time, and I promise to get better and at least post once a week. But heres an update & a screen shot of my instagram because I seemed to of posted more on there than here, and that I too promise to get better that…
Well a new semester has started for me at school and a finally got a job since moving back to the West Coast. I took one look at the three syllabuses and had a mental breakdown. I was asking myself how am I going to do this while juggling work and treatment for my ED. My first week of school felt like a week long panic attack accompanied with binging and purging. I had a few binging and purging episodes but have had now a “good” two weeks without either. Now that the first week of school has passed and I’m aquatinted with my job, I have a good system going.
As for my Eating Disorder, I started seeing a new therapist. This therapist actually is helping and I’m finally going through a treatment program with her that is helping. The stress of trying to find enough time between school, work, and working on ED had me feeling like I was drowning and I couldn’t do it. But I finally feel like I’m on a good path and like I said above I’m aquatinted now with work and got a system going .
It was also my 25th birthday the other day, my boyfriend came into town on Friday and we went out to dinner with my parents on Saturday. Friday my ED wasn’t taking over me, and for once in a long time I felt confident about my self..until Saturday night when it was as if that “high” of feeling good about myself and comfortable in my own skin wore off. I’m working on keeping that feeling of being comfortable my own skin and not worrying about what others think, but just like everything it takes time and isn’t something that will change over night.
But still, yoga every morning and every night and might even try taking walks at sunrise on the beach every morning. Theres not much of a sunrise on the west coast of Florida since the sun rises in the east but its still worth a shot and no matter what will be peaceful and beautiful. The beach as we know is my happy place and where I let go and feel grounded, but I haven’t been able to get there in the mornings anymore because of work and then I’m always at home after work studying like crazy to continue doing well in school
So now back up to date, I promise to get better at posting again. Also, what do you to manage stress when you feel like everything is coming at you at once. I’d love to hear what you all do to see if its something I can maybe try. 🙂
P.S. my outfit is Show me your mumu – Skirt and Shirt I bought of 6pm.com 🙂
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